the way i'm

Sometimes it's silly to flash back what i have gone through one year ago,

the first time he dumped me with the reason of far distant relationship.

This happened in January, when he first came to study.

After a few weeks later, i was recovering from heart break situation,

HE came back to me again,

and i think here are the night started.

In march, we got our SPM result,

HE use to dumped me the second times,

HE called me to find a better one that could give me happiness,

but i haven give up the relationship, and i tried my best to get 'HE' back.

at the end, i success, yet i asked myself

what do i get?

However, my life still go on, and i have started my college life in the beginning of April.

at the same time i know you "HIM"

we are course-mate.

i go thought my sweet April with no surprise.

Here comes August,

he tried to dump me again,

this time is because of SHE.

HE-ex, still have feeling on her?

i do no, and i don't want to know, but i fetch them to have a date.

am i go crazy?

they sit in couple sit, how actually i feel?

HE kissed SHE,

but i can still find the reason for him to protect him.

what goes on me?

but, all this i have gone through who knows?

nobody knows but only God know.

I'm wonder how i face all this.

how is my behavior handle all this

perhaps i love HE too deep

Then comes the X'mas bell rang,

it's December!

how should i describe my wonderful X'mas?

start from the beginning of the month.

HE told he that give him some times.

we are too young, and he not suitable to live like a married couple.

HE wants a fantastic teenage life.

HE want to get mad with a girl.

at the same time, he wants me to wait for him.

in the same moment, HIM exits.

is this called as timing problem?

i was so confusing,

but one thing i'm pretty clear is that this time i would not wait him again.

chance are not given by people, but is to capture the opportunities.

at the end, i decided to give up this relationship.

i have no idea to continue, and i'm tired being like a toy.

the moment i left my hand,

HE do not let go, and i'm speechless with the action he have done.

me is always me.

what i decide will never change, but in relationship i will let my opposite to make decision

till i choose to give up, there is no turning back for both of us.

no one understand my feeling, no one know how i go through and how i face it.

so don't ever judge me, that's none of your business because you know nothing happen behind me

the moment i give up, i have already end up you with a full-stop. 

no one to blame but yourself.

in January 2013, i found HIM..

right or wrong, times will tell me soon.

how is my life goes this year? 

i'm still wondering....=)