Sometimes it's silly to flash back what i have gone through one year ago,
the first time he dumped me with the reason of far distant relationship.
This happened in January, when he first came to study.
After a few weeks later, i was recovering from heart break situation,
HE came back to me again,
and i think here are the night started.
In march, we got our SPM result,
HE use to dumped me the second times,
HE called me to find a better one that could give me happiness,
but i haven give up the relationship, and i tried my best to get 'HE' back.
at the end, i success, yet i asked myself
what do i get?
However, my life still go on, and i have started my college life in the beginning of April.
at the same time i know you "HIM"
we are course-mate.
i go thought my sweet April with no surprise.
Here comes August,
he tried to dump me again,
this time is because of SHE.
HE-ex, still have feeling on her?
i do no, and i don't want to know, but i fetch them to have a date.
am i go crazy?
they sit in couple sit, how actually i feel?
HE kissed SHE,
but i can still find the reason for him to protect him.
what goes on me?
but, all this i have gone through who knows?
nobody knows but only God know.
I'm wonder how i face all this.
how is my behavior handle all this
perhaps i love HE too deep
Then comes the X'mas bell rang,
it's December!
how should i describe my wonderful X'mas?
start from the beginning of the month.
HE told he that give him some times.
we are too young, and he not suitable to live like a married couple.
HE wants a fantastic teenage life.
HE want to get mad with a girl.
at the same time, he wants me to wait for him.
in the same moment, HIM exits.
is this called as timing problem?
i was so confusing,
but one thing i'm pretty clear is that this time i would not wait him again.
chance are not given by people, but is to capture the opportunities.
at the end, i decided to give up this relationship.
i have no idea to continue, and i'm tired being like a toy.
the moment i left my hand,
HE do not let go, and i'm speechless with the action he have done.
me is always me.
what i decide will never change, but in relationship i will let my opposite to make decision
till i choose to give up, there is no turning back for both of us.
no one understand my feeling, no one know how i go through and how i face it.
so don't ever judge me, that's none of your business because you know nothing happen behind me
the moment i give up, i have already end up you with a full-stop.
no one to blame but yourself.
in January 2013, i found HIM..
right or wrong, times will tell me soon.
how is my life goes this year?
i'm still wondering....=)
